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Untitled July 3 2008 by nikazumi, literature

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Untitled July 3 2008

Torturous skin leads torturous lives Bleed now for the aching morning falls Know not what you see Nor what you hear Believe in only yourself If even yourself Don't ruin yourself with priceless whores You'll victimize your every deceit Keep your head on straight And lead what you want through holes of happiness Lies fall hard on fatal ears Practice distrusting stories Kill those off that never once lived And have those live that you'll never see again Cry at night till the 'morrow bring sun See the light shining over the windowpane Cry then too because the pain is not gone And hope the day only brings rain Oh happy lie Sh

Invisibility by nikazumi, literature

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Invisibility

I'm invisible all over again You make me feel this way How can someone that makes me Feel so good about myself one moment Make me feel like shit another? I've never understood it But I guess it's always happened I'm always so good to you Always trying to make you happy But I guess its a one sided thing... You tear me down... Just so you can pull me back up again... I hate that... Yet I'm manipulated by it every time Every god damn time you do it I'm manipulated And I'm deceived And in the end Its always my tummy that hurts Because I think that I did something wrong Its always my mind thats racing Because I begin to think

The Setting Sun by nikazumi, literature

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The Setting Sun

Only a small amount of times have I actually watched the sun set over the horizon, but each time I did, it was beautiful. The sun would be a bright orange in the blue and purple sky, tinting the white clouds with pink. Some say there's nothing more perfect than watching the beauty of the sunset over a Texas horizon, out in the country, and to be honest, I would agree whole heartedly. Sometimes the feel of being alone and watching the sun--your legs pulled up to your chest, arms wrapped around them, and your chin resting in between your knees-- is the most exhilarating feeling you could have in the world and I wouldn't trade the euphoria for e

Words by nikazumi, literature

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Words

We've strived and felt convictions The suicidal friend still nose in book Tender words mean so much And yet so little... So much has been lost in a year of passing... And only some to be gained in that same time Words revolve around us like a hollow grave Where we wander aimlessly looking for those we carry dear Why do we speak when only pain comes from voice? Why do we live when only hurt comes from life? Why do we strive when all our efforts lead us toward failure? We've grown to hate Love Cherish Despise Appreciate And curse what ever we have come to know We all grow... We all live... We all die... And not a damn

Life's Contradiction by nikazumi, literature

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Life's Contradiction

I’ve cried my tears over you I’ve dreamt my dreams for you I’ve killed myself for you And all I get is a stab in the back after I’ve died We’re young, I’ll admit We know nothing at all Nothing about love Friendship Betrayal We’re told that’s life And its fucked up But does it really have to be? I’d still cry for you if you didn’t cry for me I’d still dream of you if you didn’t dream of me But I wouldn’t still kill myself for you And when truthfully thinking about it I don’t know that I ever really would have…

TBOD-Part One of Chap. One by nikazumi, literature

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TBOD-Part One of Chap. One

CHAPTER ONE ~DEZMOND- I woke up in a cold sweat, my name quietly being called. “Dezmond…” It was a woman’s voice; the sound was soothing, as if trying to wake me up from a lapse in sleep walking. I dunno, perhaps I had been in such a sleep filled daze that I was wandering around in my unconscious state. “Dez, wake up, Keelin’s calling for you.” Keelin…oh shit, Keelin! I bolted up right, throwing my covering off of me and jumping off the bed and running past Janeane and to my daughter’s room down the small, narrow hallway where I saw her attempting to tie her little Dora the Explorer

The Book of Dezmond--Prologue by nikazumi, literature

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The Book of Dezmond--Prologue

The Blood Chronicles --The Book of Dezmond “The tragedy of life is what dies inside a man while he is alive.”—Albert Einstein Prologue “Daddy…” I can hear her call out to me but I can’t seem to find her. “Daddy, where are you?” Her voice is frantic…rushed… “Daddy, I can’t find you!” I can’t stand this; I have to find my baby...Keelin. Cliché evil laughter could be heard, echoing off the stone like walls. I have no idea where I am, but that doesn’t matter, all that matters is that I find my four year old daughter. “Keelin?” I y

Suicidal by nikazumi, literature

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Suicidal

There I am...sleeping Forever to stay there in that casket I see myself lying there...motionless Emotionless... Wondering... There's less people from school here today than there were for him. Maybe thats why I did what I did... I'm not well known like he was... How can I look at myself and see someone beautiful? How can I face the Lord in Heaven after what I did? I cant...so I wont... I'm not going...I'll stay here in the church. I'll watch people come and go... Cry and leave... Cry and leave... I didn't die a magnificent death... I didn't go in a beautiful way... My eyes are sewn shut And my hair is pulled up so no one

Untitled, 2007 by nikazumi, literature

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Untitled, 2007

Create me under the sun And I will starve for attention Create me under the moon And I will crave to stray away from the world around me How can I possibly see the light in front of me When I'm blind and all I see are the glass like Figures in my eyes. The rain leaves a river in the old school ground And we play at the banks for hours Until, of course, we were told to come in Because recess is over How do we know when we're in love? And how can you tell when your heart is broken? Have you ever really been there to know? I don't think so The trees are turning green again But I can't see it The greeness of the trees is beauti

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Pandemonium by nikazumi, literature

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Pandemonium

Pandemonium Only Time by Enya Who can say where the road goes Where the day flows, only time And who can say if your love grows As your heart chose, only time Who can say why your heart sighs As your love flies, only time And who can say why your heart cries When your love lies, only time Who can say when the roads meet That love might be in your heart And who can say when the day sleeps If the night keeps all your heart Night keeps all your heart Who can say if your love grows As your heart chose - Only time And who can say where the road goes Where the day flows, only time Who knows? Only time. South Port, Lancashire, England, UK In 15

Of Gangs and Silver Crystals by nikazumi, literature

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Of Gangs and Silver Crystals

Of Gangs and Silver Crystals High above Shinjuku, Japan, a tower stood tall and strong. Looking through a window, a man stood, holding onto his green jacket. As if by magic, his four sisters showed up in front of the other windows in the tower. The red headed man with the jacket and blue earrings turned around. He wore a black v-neck muscle shirt and green parachute pants. He faced his four sisters with a smile on his face. One of his sisters, the one with blue hair, that wore a pink leotard and a blue spiky tutu turned to him and opened her eyes. Simultaneously, the waved their hair out of their faces (all five) and it revealed an up

Dangerous Anticipation by nikazumi, literature

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Dangerous Anticipation

Dangerous Anticipation In the summer of 1999—10:30 pm—A beautiful couple sat at their dining table. This beautiful couple, of course, went by the names of Draco and Subrena Marsters. Subrena sate at the table, patiently reading Something Deadly by Rachel Lee whilst her husband, Draco, read the Daily Prophet (the wizarding news paper), flipping through the pages rather…impatiently. Draco played with the rims of his reading glasses. Subrena looked at him every once in a while after reading a paragraph or chapter to see Draco's look of usually either disgust or surprise. He picked up his coffee cup with his left hand (his writing/wand hand

OGASC 5-8 by nikazumi, literature

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OGASC 5-8

It was around 7:00 when Serena arrived home. She was slumped over, carrying a bag. She kicked her tennis shoes off and put her slippers on. She walked down the hall and she talked to herself on the way. Serena: Ugh. What a horrible day. Maybe if I catch a few zee's, I'll wake up and find out this entire day was a terrible nightmare. *She opened her bedroom door, stepping in. She then ran out again, screaming. A cloud of smoke followed her pat of running.* Ahhhh! Sammy! You're toast! *she ran into the living room, where her father and little brother were sitting. She stopped in front of the coffee table, panting. * Ketai: *who was r

OGASC 9-12 by nikazumi, literature

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OGASC 9-12

Around 6:30 a.m. the next day—In the same park near the lake, a bunch of crows squawked, they flew around a trash can full of papers and a giant fountain that spewed water. A few blocks away, in Shinjuku Hospital, a man sat near the all glass wall. The wheelchair he was in wasn't locked at the wheels. He wore a white cap on his head and the original white hospital suit. He held a knife case in his lap, his hands wrapped around it. His name was Senobe. Senobe: All of the Blade Children…must be exterminated…we don't have any time to waste. *he pulled the sharp, jagged knife out of its case.* To the death…*behind him there was a giant dar

OGASC 13-14 by nikazumi, literature

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OGASC 13-14

In the country, outside of Shinjuku, there was a prayer ward. Inside the spell room, Serena sat with her friends: Rei Hino (the granddaughter of the pray ward's owner: Priest Grandpa), Lita Kino, Ami Asazuki, and Mina Uesagii (quick author's note—I don't know Ami or Mina's last names, so used random ones that I think I made up in my head…anyways, if anyone knows their real last names, then it would be much appreciated if you would tell them to me. ^-^ Thanks.). They all sat around a picture that Serena stole from Rini's "faux photo album". The picture was of Serena and Rini in kimonos. They smiled. Rei: Alright, lets get the goods on this l

Hell's Heart by nikazumi, literature

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Hell's Heart

Hell's Heart Coldness filled the room, love was missing. Warmth had been a foreign thing to the residents of the Main Domain of Hell. Silence over took Purgatory. No one was allowed to talk. If they did speak even a word, Purgatory's ruler would kill them all over again, because he's got that power. But in the Black Room, the meeting place of the Council of Hell, two people, the Ruler of Hell himself, Davey Havok, and the Ruler of Purgatory, Draco Marsters, met. Draco fiddled with his fingers as Davey sorted through all of his reports. Davey looked at the nervous Draco and smiled. Davey: What's wrong Draco? Draco: It's Demyx's 5th birth

September 13, 2006--Wednesday by nikazumi, literature

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September 13, 2006--Wednesday

Music: anything by Blink 182 or anything by AVA September 13, 2006—Wednesday She sounded angry when she called me. I thought I had done something, because that's always a small portion of her anger. She told me to get home quickly because we needed to talk and that she would see me when I got there, which would be soon. After she hung up, I could hear bells. I always hear bells when something bad is about to happen. I wish I could say it were heavenly but its not. Have you ever heard the song "Hell's Bells" by AC/DC? That's what I'm talking about. The beginning of that song is supposed to be a short little, I dunno, ballad of what could be

She Said by nikazumi, literature

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She Said

She Said Would you hurt me, Lord?—She said. Would you take me away, Lord?—She said. Would you kill me, Lord?—She said. And he never answered me.—She said. Is suicide a weakness?—She said. Is it so wrong to die by your own hands?—She said. Aren't you gong to answer me?—She said. And he never answered me.—She said. What is carnage?—She said. Why is the sky blue?—She said. Where are you?—She said. And he never answered me.—She said. I need you!—She said. Teach me!—She said. Where are you?—She said. And he never answered me.—She said. Where are you… Where are you… Where are you… He doesn't exist.—She said.

Always Gone by nikazumi, literature

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Always Gone

You're always gone Where do you keep going? You're right there In front of me I can see you But can you see me? I miss you. I know you see me...physically I know you do... But you're not there long enough to really see me Look at me Into me for once Try to tell me how I feel About life, love... About everything... You dont think of me... I know you dont I want to be acknowledged But I never will Not by you Not by anone "How are you?" "I'm fine..." And that's the end of that I'll see you tomorrow I'll be the invisible one... You might not see me Things won't change at all

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About nikazumi

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Current Residence: Last thing I remember...I was in a really bright room...with really comfy walls covered in matresses
Favourite genre of music: mama said theys my magic shoes...
Favourite photographer: You know, that one guy? He took those shots of your mom...
Favourite style of art: The Digital Kind...
Operating System: Oh, the pain!! *screams*
MP3 player of choice: The kind that plays
Shell of choice: *starts to sing* Macaroni, macaroni, macroni is the best!!!
Wallpaper of choice: The kind that goes on walls or computers
Skin of choice: Human?
Favourite cartoon character: Ginji Amano, Eiri Yuki, Kazuki Fuchoin, Kouske Asazaki (sp?) and Rini Tsukino
Personal Quote: The inspiration flowed right through me...but then I had to go to the bathroom...

Favourite Visual Artist

Luis Royo and Mark Ryden

Favourite Movies

Bang Bang You're Dead

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Blaqk Audio, AFI, Good Charlotte, Blink 182, Queen, the Sex Pistols...

Favourite Writers

Edgar Allan Poe

Favourite Games

Righ now: Kingdom Hearts II and Rogue Galaxy

Favourite Gaming Platform

PS2

Tools of the Trade

A hammer!!

Other Interests

anime, music, writing (poetry, prose)...other stuff?

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nikazumi

Jun 27, 2011

Devious Journal Entry

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Hey kids!!! Its been a while and life is going accordingly I suppose. I just wanted everyone to know that Compy2 (my laptop) is OFFICIALLY BACK IN ACTION!!! Way stoked.... He's been a little incapacitated for a few months now. :3

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nikazumi

Apr 17, 2011

I had...

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I had a dream that depicted my entire day today-the love/hate relationship between Zuko and Sokka from Avatar: The Last Airbender. It sounds lame, I know but I have fallen in love with the (not) anime and decided, apparently, that my two favorite characters should somehow love each other more than two boys should...which makes me, well... as you all know, happy xD Anyways. That's about all I have to update on. I'm suddenly really into Zukka fanfics. I LOVE love/hate relationships.

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nikazumi

Jul 9, 2010

Dude...

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So its taking me forever to post anything here lately. I'm in Montana on my vacation right now and I'm having a blast! I'm almost not looking forward to going home and going back to how things were. Zeno is pretty happy. We're staying in my roomie's parents house which is pretty big (or I think its big but everything is big compared to our apartment!) and I think my puppy is having fun with having so much room to roam around in. He's into it, dude. We're having an awesome time and I'm really excited. Things are going very smoothly...hope they stay that way when we go home :) Thought I'd let yall know I'm still alive...since its been... a c

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Midnyte-Sun

Feb 13, 2008

Thanks so much for the

on Sol 3!

nikazumi

Jun 1, 2008

guess how long its been since i've logged on O___O... anyways, of course... the picture was so adorable and i couldn't help but fave it... its so cute. it actually inspired me to write a story that i never finished...